Thursday, June 12, 2008

Let Go

So life has been crazy, as you well know. But I have a feeling it's going to slow down. At least enough to where I can be on here long enough to read and comment your blogs and maybe write a few of my own. ;-)

I've been pretty down in the dumps lately (as you may have gaged from Casey's blog) and confused about a lot of aspects of life. Some, I don't really care to talk about as I'm still coming to terms with it all.

Then there is this whole summer of limbo. I'm no longer in high school... but not yet in college. I'm just here. Waiting to say good-bye to friends, praying that I will meet new friends in college. Waiting to say good-bye to my family while trying to enjoy every minute I do have with them. Trying to spend time with people that matter most, while not shunning the rest of my friends.

It's an odd and unattainable balancing act. As soon as I think I have a handle on one thing I drop something else that I'm juggling and it shatters around my feet. Then, not only am I juggling 85 different things, I also have to tip-toe around all the shattered things on the ground. I seem to be making a mess of my life. But I'm beginning to realize I just need to give it all to God, stop being such a control-freak, realize that I am His child and He will clean up my mess and help me learn my lesson if I just relinquish whatever control I think I have.

To say the least, I do believe this will be a summer of growth and change if I just open my mind and heart and soul to God. Most importantly...
I need to


CaseyMay said...

"He will clean up my mess"

I have one thing to say, "I made a poopy"


graffitigirl said...

Specifically 85 things? :) Sounds like you have been busy! I'm still praying for ya. I think that God's gonna teach me a lot of things this summer. An idea just hit me, not for you unfortunately though. Today I was trying to think of a word or two that could express what I'm feeling right now and i couldn't think of anything but "let go" works very nicely!

As for letting go of memories I think I might try that but it's really against my character so I don't know how well that will go.

PS You're definitely right about Susan and Caspian. That whole romance thing is found nowhere in the book.

Dragonflysoul said...

letting go is one of THE hardest things to do in this life. i don't know why when we KNOW that God does a much better job as handling the burdens than we ever could. but nonetheless, we struggle to let go, we struggle to maintain control.

i speak from experience. you are in my heart, thoughts, and prayers my dear. i'm cracking your ribs with hugs and i'm holding your hand from afar :-)

Anna Naomi said...

I know how you feel! The summer between high school and college is, I'm discovering, a weird one. I know I'm leaving, so I'm preparing to say goodbye, but at the same time I'm not leaving for another 2 months! It can be a hard feeling sometimes.