Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Beloved.

As she spins in circles colors flash by
As she slows down things begin to take shape
As she stops there are objects everywhere
Separate, distinct objects
Her hand reaches out to touch
Flinching, she pulls back
Sometimes objects can prick, burn, and hurt
So she begins to spin again
Preferring to see mere colors flashing by
Instead of what's really there
-Me
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The world is a broken place. I came home to friends that waste away their lives drinking and partying. These, by the way, are my "Christian friends."
Do I still love them? Why yes, of course.
Does my heart absolutely BREAK for them? Indeed it does.
It would be so nice to continue spinning, pretending that what is really there is simply a blur, not my problem. But I can't.
Pray, pray, pray.
And yet, how often do I do things that aren't healthy for me? We are all the sinful, lusting, whore of a bride described in Hosea.
But.
As always, there is always hope in the cross, hope pouring from the smiling face of Jesus (: And I'll keep pressing on... joyfully... no matter how sad and destitute circumstances may be. Jesus wins in the end. Jesus wins now in my life. Victory indeed =)
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Love of my life
Look deep in my eyes
There you will find what you need
Give me your life
Lust and the lies
The past you're afraid I might see
You've been running away from me

You're my beloved
Lover I'm yours
Death shall not part us
It's you I died for
For better or worse
Forever we'll be
Our Love it unites us
It binds you to me
It's a mystery

Love of my life
Look deep in my eyes
There you will find what you need
I'am the giver of life
I'll clothe you in white
My immaculate bride you will be
Oh come running home to me

You're my beloved
Lover I'm yours
Death shall not part us
It's you I died for
For better or worse
Forever we'll be
Our Love it unites us
It binds you to me

Well you've been a mistress, my wife
Chasing lovers it won't satisfy
Won't you let me make you my bride
You will drink of my lips
And you'll taste new life

Cause you're my beloved
Lover I'm yours
Death shall not part us
It's you I died for
For better or worse
Forever we'll be
Our Love it unites us
& it binds you to me

You're my beloved
Forever we'll be
Our love it unites us
And it binds you to me
It's a mystery
It's a mystery
-Beloved by Tenth Avenue North

3 comments:

Boise Diva said...

Sorry to hear about your friends. Really, I think that behavior is related to idleness, something God does not admire...and you can see why.

graffitigirl said...

Pray, pray, pray. You got it right on. And believe me it really makes a difference. I had a friend like that who I still pray for. She was just making bads choices and had the kind of boyfriend that you wouldn't want. So I was praying for her and back in September I made her a birthday card. I wrote that I loved her and that i was praying for her. Then a couple months ago at church she told me taht at first the card had upset her but eventually she realized that I really meant what I had written and that it was a big part of why she was coming back to God. I was really excited and thankful that God had chosen to use me like that. She's doing a lot better now and I'm praying that she'll be a strong leader soon enough.

So in short, pray.

Becky said...

I love that song by Tenth Avenue North. :o)

I have a passion for the church as a whole and the special place it has in God's heart. Try checking out "The Church" by Derek Webb if you haven't already.

Beautiful, beautiful song. :o)