Flying Pie

Yesterday I had the most wonderful experience at Flying Pie Pizzaria. It is a scrumptious pizza place locally owned and operated only in the Boise Valley. Never had I been there before, but after passing it multiple times as I drive around the city and especially after hearing the company closed down for a week and took their employees to Costa Rica I just had to try it out.
So, after a long day of thrift shopping with Rachelle and Kate we decided to go in for dinner. It was absolutely fantastic. The ambiance is quite fun, the employees crazy (in a very good way), and the pizza is absolutely delicious. Seriously, the best I've ever had.
We got a small pizza, breadsticks, and three drinks for less than $15! For five dollars a person I really can't complain about anything. It's one of those weird, eclectic restaurants that everyone loves. If you are ever in the Treasure Valley be sure to check it out! :) I'll even go with you if you need some company.

Flying Pie Website

In other news... life has been busy as per my usual. I've enjoyed a few quiet moments this weekend, but not nearly as much as when I was home, being a coach potato in Lewiston ;) The past week has been full of new and interesting classes, seeing my friends again, going to my beloved Impact, baby-sitting some of my favorite kids in the world, laughing a lot with new and older friends, watching The Curious Case of Benjamin Button with my campus minister and his family, staying caught up on classes, attending meetings, etc.
Tonight I am going to a leadership meeting for Impact and then journeying on to church at Calvary Chapel with my friend Chantel. Should be a lovely Sunday night.

I have a few things on my heart that I hope to develop into a post soon, time will tell if I accomplish this or not! ;)

God be with you all,
Samantha

Sigh... Happy Sigh.

I'm back. Back into the swing of things. Back where I'm meant to be. Learning again, laughing with friends, doing crazy fun things, leading, following. Procrastinating and not. Loving lots.

I love Boise.

It was the worst good-bye of my life, leaving my parents this time. My mommy sobbed in my arms, begging me not to leave. And my daddy cried harder than all the other times combined. It becomes harder when your parents also turn into some of your best friends. But at least the tears show how much our relationship has improved (:

Been super-busy and loving every moment. Went to a Sunday night service at Calvary Chapel, really felt God's presence, it was powerful.

I don't even know, maybe I'll recap more later (: Love you all!
-Samantha

Broken.

Lifehouse-Broken
The broken clock is a comfort, it helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow from stealing all my time
I am here still waiting though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best, like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain there is healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on, I'm holdin' on
I'm barely holdin' on to you

The broken locks were a warning you got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded, I'm an open book instead
And I still see your reflection inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose, they're still looking for life

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain is the healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin')
I'm barely holdin' on to you

I'm hangin' on another day
Just to see what you will throw my way
And I'm hangin' on to the words you say
You said that I will, will be ok

The broken lights on the freeway left me here alone
I may have lost my way now, having forgot my way home

I'm falling apart, I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart that's still beating
In the pain, there is healing
In your name, I find meaning
So I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin')
I'm barely holdin' on to you
I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm holdin' on (I'm still holdin'), I'm baely holdin' on to you

Confusion.

Just when I think God is beginning to confirm one path in my life, He equally confirms another path too. What's a girl to do?

Apparently, this is so I don't try to take control.
(:

The itch.

I'm feeling quite an itch to crack open my college books and begin reading and preparing for this next semester. I am really excited for my classes. English 102, French 101 (I took three years of French in high school, but didn't retain much :P,) Criminal Justice 101, Sociology 101, and Spiritual Disciplines. My semester is going to be challenging, interesting, and fun.

Sadly, I had to ship my books to my address in Boise instead of my address here, so I have no books to crack open.

A passion and a desire to learn. Motivation to get started. I pray this doesn't leave me once I finally have my books in hand.

Peace.

Salut!

Today was lovely! Even the dentist part went really well. My temporary fake tooth came out really easy so they didn't have to numb me and my permanent fake tooth looks GREAT. So much better than the last one. My gums bled like crazy but other than that it was a quick and easy process.

Then my dad and I went to the store so I could buy stuff to make homemade pizza on Friday and then we went to Arby's for lunch. It was delicious!! :) And really nice to have some one-on-one time with him.

Came home, took a nap, and then I got down to business. My personal retreat day. I have to have at least one personal retreat day a month in order to be on the leadership team for Impact (one of the campus ministries.) And since I have recently been called to the leadership team it was time to have a PRD. I decided to focus on prayer today since my prayer life has been less than fantastic. First though I wrote in my journal for awhile, decided six things I really wanted to focus on during my prayer time and then read chapter one of Ecclesiastes. I really love Ecclesiastes.
Then I began to pray. I prayed a lot for other people that I've been meaning to pray over. I asked God for peace and maybe some answers about my church situation and the summer. I prayed forgiveness, seeking my own from the Lord and giving it to other people. Then I walked around from room to room in my parent's home, banishing satan away and asking Jesus to come into every room, giving him reign over the house. That was probably the most emotional part of my PRD. To wrap it up I worshiped with music, boy do I love singing and dancing for the Lord (:

I do not have any answers yet, but I sure do have a sense of peace. My prayer life has got to improve. There is such a noticeable difference between the anxieties I normally feel throughout the day and the peace that comes after praying earnestly to my Father and seeking His will and love. It such a beautiful thing. I think one of the verses that rings truest in my life these days is Philipians 4:7, "And the peace of God, which surpasses all comprehension, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus."
Amen! (:

Yay!! *Sarcasm*

I will be sitting in a dentist's chair in one hour and twenty minutes. He will be ripping out a temporary fake tooth and shoving a new one into mouth.

Joy upon joys.

On the bright side, I get to walk to the dentist's office since it is only a mile and a half or so away. Which means I do not have to hitch a ride from somebody. Being without a car has been one of the most interesting parts of my trip up here.
Back to walking. It's foggy outside, which I love. And today is my Personal Retreat Day so I will be able to spend some sweet time with my Jesus. There's something about walking outside, hand-in-hand with one's Savior that calms the soul.
And a calm before tooth pain is always welcome ;)

Shall update when I return and get some time.

God be with you,
Samantha

Samantha Needs/Wants

Samantha Needs...

• Water
• Air
  
• Food
• Love

in order to survive.


Samantha Wants...

• Creativity to flow from her fingers
  
• Love
• Food
• Water
• Good-byes to not hurt
• To have answers
• To know people deeply
• To be known deeply
• Laughter
• Honesty
• To write a book
• To know the will of her Father for her life
• To follow the will of her Father for her life no matter how challenging
• Others to know and follow the will of God
• People to stop doing things that harm them
• Jesus to come back
• Her parents, other family members, and friends to know the love of God, know Jesus as their Savior and to be saved
• To influence young ladies positively
• To figure out her church issues
• To work at a summer camp either this summer or next
• You to be happy (:

Samantha really loves lists.
Five more days... bittersweet day, here I come!

Beloved.

As she spins in circles colors flash by
As she slows down things begin to take shape
As she stops there are objects everywhere
Separate, distinct objects
Her hand reaches out to touch
Flinching, she pulls back
Sometimes objects can prick, burn, and hurt
So she begins to spin again
Preferring to see mere colors flashing by
Instead of what's really there
-Me
---

The world is a broken place. I came home to friends that waste away their lives drinking and partying. These, by the way, are my "Christian friends."
Do I still love them? Why yes, of course.
Does my heart absolutely BREAK for them? Indeed it does.
It would be so nice to continue spinning, pretending that what is really there is simply a blur, not my problem. But I can't.
Pray, pray, pray.
And yet, how often do I do things that aren't healthy for me? We are all the sinful, lusting, whore of a bride described in Hosea.
But.
As always, there is always hope in the cross, hope pouring from the smiling face of Jesus (: And I'll keep pressing on... joyfully... no matter how sad and destitute circumstances may be. Jesus wins in the end. Jesus wins now in my life. Victory indeed =)
---

Love of my life
Look deep in my eyes
There you will find what you need
Give me your life
Lust and the lies
The past you're afraid I might see
You've been running away from me

You're my beloved
Lover I'm yours
Death shall not part us
It's you I died for
For better or worse
Forever we'll be
Our Love it unites us
It binds you to me
It's a mystery

Love of my life
Look deep in my eyes
There you will find what you need
I'am the giver of life
I'll clothe you in white
My immaculate bride you will be
Oh come running home to me

You're my beloved
Lover I'm yours
Death shall not part us
It's you I died for
For better or worse
Forever we'll be
Our Love it unites us
It binds you to me

Well you've been a mistress, my wife
Chasing lovers it won't satisfy
Won't you let me make you my bride
You will drink of my lips
And you'll taste new life

Cause you're my beloved
Lover I'm yours
Death shall not part us
It's you I died for
For better or worse
Forever we'll be
Our Love it unites us
& it binds you to me

You're my beloved
Forever we'll be
Our love it unites us
And it binds you to me
It's a mystery
It's a mystery
-Beloved by Tenth Avenue North