Wednesday, October 15, 2008

I'm Walking on Sonshine, wooooah!

Truly, these past three days have been overly delightful. Never mind the fact that homework is quite a bother and I'm severely tired of my Economics class (mostly because of my creepy teacher, but that is another blog for another moment.) I have been blessed by so many people. Blessed by God. I'm living in the moment, breath by breath. Dancing around in the cold weather, wrapped in my warm scarf, coffee in one hand, friends' hands in the other. I'm smiling as I feel God's love poured upon me. My heart stretches to capacity as I anticipate the journey I am beginning with Him. A journey of Him and I, just the two of us. He has separated me from the most important people in my life, and is showing me that He really can be all that I need. He IS all that I need. He is all that I want.

He's showing me that I have an opportunity to become close with new people. And even though I dread the thought of starting over and trying to forge new paths with new people, I'm finally ready. And I finally feel like it's okay. I know that my family and friends from Lewiston will always mean sooo much to me, and I to them, but we have indeed been separated for the moment, for a reason. We are going down different paths (albeit quite parallel.) It's so much fun and a real blessing for me to watch my friends grow, experience new things, and find their place in this world apart from me and their environment, their place with God.

And now it's my turn. With God guiding my every footstep I'm going to become Samantha in Christ. My faith is going to be my own. My personality will be what my soul has been bursting to be. I am going to go where God wants me to go, even if it's further away from the ones I love. I know I feel pulls and desires for a reason, and I think it's time to give into those desires. I'm tired of playing "good little Christian girl." It was fun for awhile, but complacency is not where my heart is.

I'm dancing around, hurriedly spinning circles, leaping through the air, prancing around, and laughing the whole time. Life is meant to be forward movement. Life is meant to be experienced with joy (true joy that the Cross gives us.) Life is meant to be placed in the Father's hands, for Jesus can give us life, and life abundantly. I don't know where I'll be tomorrow, the next day, the week after, or three years down the road. But I know that I'm entering into a relationship focused upon God and Jesus and the Loving Spirit. And I know I've felt this way before, but something is different this time. It's a heart understanding instead of a head understanding.

I'm ready to jump into my Daddy's arms and begin a lifelong journey, an eternal journey with Him. I'm going to become the woman of God that I can, want, should be. I'm gonna find my place in this world, a place that helps advance His kingdom. I'm gonna be more than a bump on a log. I would ask that you would pray for me as I begin my movement forward. It's going to be a scary journey, but an exciting one. And I know the enemy will try to stop me. So prayers would be soo very appreciated.

Hurray, hurray! I'm walking, jogging, running on Sonshine. And my word, it feels good!


Stepheny Weaver said...

I loved reading this post! It was great...

I am still praying for you...


p.s., I LOVE the new blog design! It is SO cool!

Dragonflysoul said...

check you out, sexxaaay!! :-D

i love the new digs!!! that couch is too cute - i'd put that in my apartment! LOL

i love that song too, btw :-D

your joy is contagious. this was a great post. bask in the joy of the Lord, amiga.

Joy said...

Thank you for that post and thank you for praying for our adoption! That means SO much to me and my family!

People have always told me that I was joyful and that seeing my smile was contagious, but not until June 3rd did I really get that joy that ONLY CHRIST can give! That was when I was saved by His AMAZING and Unmovable Salvation! PRAISE HIM, PRAISE HIM!!!

Thank you for your prayers!

Anonymous said...

What an upbeat post!

Paige said...

Okay first of all, I loooooovvvvveee the new blog layout. It is sooooo cool! Where did you get it?
Secondly, I loved your post. It was written with such clarity and understanding that I can picture it exactly. I am so glad you are doing so very well. I think we are all going through the same thing right now, just under slightly different circumstances. Cool weather and coffee, huh? You sound like me. I bought some coffee yesterday to start taking with me on my way to work in the mornings. I like Starbucks, but they are definately pricey especially for my cravings!