Late at night.

I am enjoying my late nights.

Peaceful.

Serene.

Tranquil.

Perhaps, the only thing I don't like, are the early mornings that follow a late night :-D
But apparently since I'm young, I'm also crazy, and do not need much sleep.

As the world spins madly on, I sit perfectly calm in my room, pondering the inner-workings of myself, God, other people, the world. My thoughts are a beautiful blur. I often think in retrospect, it's a lovely state of mind.

I've had writer's block lately, and I think it's because I've been wanting to write as someone I'm not. I have been trying to come up with these witty posts, intriguing topics, relateable posts. But really, this blog is for me and I just need to write whatever flows from my fingers...

Even if it's just random nonsense such as this (:

It's 2 am, and I'm having coffee in the morning with a dear friend. I will not regret this late night nor the early morning. I can do both. And considering in ten years when I will (God willing) have a family and won't be able to do these late nights and early mornings, I'm going to savor this time as a teenager. Often, I think I'm trying so hard to "grow up" that I forget to live in the moment.

As my thoughts trail off, so does this blog...

Running after His heart,
SamanthaMarie

Thursday Thoughts

I don't know if I've ever had a song in my dream play so vividly. Colbie Caillat's (sp?!) song "Realize" was playing quite prominently in the background of my dream right before I woke up. It was by far, one of these strangest things to ever happen in one of my dreams. Especially since I only hear that song when I'm working. Has anyone else ever incorporated a song into your dream?

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Sometimes so much has been going on that it's hard to explain everything in a witty, flowing post, hence the random montage of what-have-yous this post will have.

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I think that it is impossible to be friends with a guy that likes you. Even more impossible when you have no choice but to see said guy because he works with you.

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Satan's attacks are coming full force. So many people I know are dealing with his attempts to get us off the path of righteousness, myself included. It's been a hard few weeks. And I'm finally overcoming these attacks, but I'm tired. And annoyed. And guilty. And disappointed. And sad. And angry.

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At least, I'm finally feeling.

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I'm beginning to hate food and the fact that nothing ever sounds good. It's a struggle to eat everyday. And I know this is my way of controlling something in my life, which is obviously no bueno. I need to give that up to God and learn how to turn to Him for everything instead of other worldly things.

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I hate the awkward looks he gives me, males are stooooopid.

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I love A Walk to Remember it's so beautiful :D

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It's heating up!! And I secretly LOVE it, while everyone around me constantly bemoans the 90 and 100 degree weather. I much prefer it to the cold any day!! Plus, summer nights are absolute LOVE!!

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Today, this morning, I sat out on my deck with a cup of coffee and then a smoothie spending time in the Word, and it was peaceful... comforting... a breath of air... just what I needed.

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I miss all of you very much!!

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Casey is going to Texas now, and I'm rather excited because Texas is warmer than Minnesota ;) And I'd love to visit :D Aaaand... God has a plan :D

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This Satuday Casey and I are going to spend the night out in my backyard underneath God's amazing sky, I'm so excited!!

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Next Saturday I have a wedding to go to for my cousin!! YAY!!! :D I dreamed about that last night as well.

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I'm far from spending my summer the way I wanted to :-P Far from spending it the way I should... Bleh.

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Now I'm off! To the great adventure of taking a shower and getting ready for the day, wee!!!

So... here's the awkward introduction thing...

:D

Well, my name is Samantha. I <3 blogging. This probably stems from the fact that normally I have a hard time talking about myself and my life, but I find the words flow freely when I'm writing them or typing them.
I'm 18, a follower of Jesus Christ, a daughter, a friend, a sister, a cousin, a niece, a granddaughter, a student, a worker, an observer, a lover of the world. And if you care to know more, you can always ask (:

I use smilies, a lot.

Also, when talking about something that excites me, I've been known to use many exclamation marks!!

I'm free to run!
I'm free to dance!
I am FREE to LIVE for YOU!

And I love every minute of my life.

I dance to worship music, because it's a fun an intimate way to praise God.

I enjoy scrapbooking, crocheting, reading, card-making, writing, and other "nerdy" hobbies.

I love my family and my friends. Many of whom are not followers of Christ, but I hope to be a positive impact so that can change.

Road trips are love.

College is upon me.

I'm random!!!! :D

Welp,

I suppose I should sign off now, and hit the hay. Until further notice, this has been Samantha, and I LOVE YOU!

-In His Love,
Sami